college pt. 2

sup my faithful and dedicated readers? it sure has been a while.. (i think i say that every time.) i guess there really hasn’t been much to talk about besides that college is a royal pain in the anus sometimes. it is days like today where i just want to crawl into my bed and cry because my brain feels like watery scrambled eggs from d2…

took a bio exam which i got dominated on, played football in the cold blacksburg rain, walked around for a few hours all cold, wet, and gross, and attempted to write a 6 page paper that is (kind of) due real soon. maybe playing football isn’t so bad in the scope of things, but it is unpleasant when its 40 degrees outside. not to mention God decided it would be funny for it to rain in blacksburg for the next 69 days.

going back home was awesome… seeing old faces, spending time with loved ones, driving around unnecessarily, eating delicious food, loitering, revisiting old places, you know the drill. though it feels all too short, ya know? and as always, its money knowing you can go home to fall back on the things and people that you truly care for. college is unfortunate in that you lose those things.. but that is life.

“if you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. put foundations under them.” – my boy henry

well kids, thats about all i have time for, and in the words of chad ochocinco…

child please.

jimmy johns

never have i found so much wisdom at a sandwich store. i thought it would be a good time to share:

I Believe-
that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe-
that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I Believe-
that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I Believe-
that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by other. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken that the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I Believe-
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I Believe-
that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I Believe-
that you shouldn’t be eager to find out a secret.
It could change your life forever.

I Believe-
that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I Believe-
that you should always leave loved ones with loving well wishes. It may be the last time you see them.

I Believe-
that you can keep going long after you can’t.

I Believe-
that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe-
that we don’t have to change friends, if we understand that friends change.

I Believe-
that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I Believe-
that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe-
that you either control your attitude or it controls you.

I Believe-
that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, that passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I Believe-
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe-
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I Believe-
that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down, will be the ones who help you get back up.

I Believe-
that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I Believe-
that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don’t even know you.

I Believe-
that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.

I Believe-
that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe-
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.

college

today, for my english class, i spent two hours writing a three page paper about one event that changed my life. as cliche as it may sound, it is probably college. (in case you’re wondering, i wrote about missions)

but where should i start…?

when you enter college, all of a sudden, you leave so many things you’ve become so familiar with over the past 4 years of your life… like people, places, and things. and some of those things i am missing quite dearly. i miss my dog, i miss korean food, i miss my bed, i miss the comfort of having your own shower, i miss my car, i miss some people that i thought i would never miss, i miss basketball shots, i miss home.

i guess without these things, i’ve had to make adjustments.. which is something not in my repertoire: sharing a room with a person. walking 1/4 a mile to access delicious food. overcoming the fear of using a public toilet. wearing flip flops to a shower (freaking annoying.) doing my own laundry. living with and around random people. climbing into a bunk bed. sleeping at 2 am everyday. waking up at 11 for classes everyday (except mondays, stupid lab.) running into people that you don’t want to. dealing with awkwardness. living with awkwardness.

i can also say i’ve learned a lot too: learning how to dry yourself in a small shower stall without your towel touching the grimy shower walls. professors are 100x more interesting that high school teachers. classes are optional. people love volleyball. life goes on. full court basketball is 69x better than half court basketball. free stuff is awesome. even the most seemingly perfect thing is imperfect so you just have to settle. textbooks are expensive, but its okay because talk is cheap. people change.

i feel like everything i’ve said is pretty negative.. so the good side to it all: freedom.

FREEEEEEEEDOM

god bless

great expectations

i’ve been slacking with this junks… probably because i don’t really have anything to elaborate on nowadays. things have been pretty straightfoward… not much to think or worry about. so i read through my old posts to try and find something clever to write about, and it took me back through senior year and the hype behind it. for example, my february post was hoping for some grand summer that could live up to the previous one. my may post was a self-attempt to pump myself up for summer.

regardless of the pre-hype, i guess my summer has been pretty crazy; summer camp, the beach twice, legal stuff (lol), worthless wednesdays, graduation, july 4th, my last retreat, stuff like that… but it feels like its all lacking. ya feel me?

3 weeks = bittersweet.

this end of summer business has bummed me out.

but time to make the best of it!!!

till next time kids

grad week

grad week is filled with the most bittersweet days i have ever felt.
never has boredom/repetitiveness and joy/celebration mixed so well in one day.
after 10 graduations.. i don’t think i ever want to go back to them. however.. i finally understand why we went to high school for 4 years. and that is to see who has the loudest crowd at graduation. word?

but a quick thank you to…
… all the people who came to the graduations
… those who provided delicious food daily for those in attendence

seriously.. without those two things.. grad week would be lame.
im so happy they are all over….
until next year at least.

now summer can REALLY begin…

here we GOOO

thoughts

gone is the month of may. and i don’t know how to feel about it.

im happy that i am finally done with high school.
happy i no longer have to wake up at 6:45 5 days of the week.
happy i don’t have to do useless homework assignments that will get me nowhere in life.
happy to never have to take an ap test again.
happy to never have to see the many idiots of woodson again.

just kidding about the last one.. that is kinda mean… or am i?

but im sad about… nothing??

maybe because i have accomplished nothing this year except 1) getting into college and 2)winning a turkey bowl

but i have to say.. there was more failure than success this academic school year.

failure to win 1st place at the easter potluck
failure to win 1st place at talent show
failure to win another turkey bowl

but i guess everyone has to fail so we stay humble…

maybe im sad that we are nearing that time when we separate and go our own ways

sometimes i feel like, i will never see some people again

but it happens? people come and go

kinda sad

goodbyes are no good

and in the words of brian mcknight:

"where is the good in goodbye????!?"

maybe im being over dramatic
or maybe brian mcknight looks like an older lebroom james

witness this, lebron

so heres to the last 3 months of being around each other

lets make it memorable.

fears pt. 2

in 7 days, i will be a drugged up, less wise person. if you catch my
drift…

HAHA get it? drift..

thats right, i am getting my wisdoms pulled. and i don’t think i’ve ever had this much anxiety over something. it was all good until i went to the doctor for consultation and he told me that theres a very small chance of my losing permanent feeling in my lips/cheek because there are some nerves of grave importance near my wisdoms. eek. i want to be able to enjoy food without it dribbling out of my mouth. i don’t wanna sound like ‘david after the dentist’ for the rest of my life.. word?

so whoever wants to be an angel and visit me when my mouth will be swollen like what.. feel free to and bring jello please. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE

school is over real soon. i’m ready the craziness

ya feel me?

yep

goodbyes

as a kid, i used to imagine i was some kind of superhero on a quest to save the world, and a huge epic battle i would save the world at the cost of my life. BUT, at the end of it all, i would be in the arms of my best friend and with my last breaths, i could deliver some life changing words of wisdom. kinda like saving private ryan.

"james.. earn this..." hahahaa

for those who know, i work at kumon and today was my 2nd to last day. before i headed out a co-worker stopped me and she was pretty much saying bye cause she wouldn’t be there next week blah blah. it occurred to me that this my chance.. but all i could produce was “it was good working with you.” consider that she is kinda fobby and like 20 some years old and i was really never sure what her name was. (nicole i think?) anyways, in the end, i couldn’t even say something like “have a nice life,” or “send me an invite when you get married.” i guess when it comes down to it, amazing life changing words only happen in movies and in books. kinda like jesus saying “it is done,” he was probably saving that for a while… HAHAHA just kidding.

let us remember those who died in the columbine shootings 10 years to this day
and the 33 killed in the virginia tech shootings.

life is rough and that is why you pray
“surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life”
ps 23:6

fears

i think if someone asked me what i fear the most, my answer would probably be eating shee-gum-chee from lotte. the story goes like this: i was eating some bi bim bap at home and i bite into some really hard and crunchy, and the taste is so much more defined than anything else… so i got curious and pulled it out my mouth. lo and behold, it was a green square freaking bug and i threw up. now i can only imagine that i had eaten more bugs before i noticed this one.. and thus began my abstinence from spinach and bi bim bap.

actually this happened like 3 months ago, but i don’t write about it now because i realized i had bi bim bap for dinner for the first time today, bug-less this time.

but, its funny how something so small in comparison to the larger delicious image, can totally ruin the whole thing for you. i guess once in a while you get those nasty bugs of life in your mouth and it freaks you out and drives you away from something good. i guess what im trying to say is, if you really love something, don’t just give it up because one time in your life, you happened to chew up half a bug before you realize what you’ve done. give it another chance, and you’ll find yourself happy again. (maybe)

but i will never eat this again

happy easter
happy 4th quarter

he's baaack

be back soon.

the last word

i think the weather gets me thinking the most about the past… during that 68 or whatever degree day, i stepped out of school at the end of the day and a whole bunch of thoughts came to me….

i miss the summer and everything that came with it.. including this:

my family away from my family

the tuati family – what a blessing they’ve been… at first ill admit to being really doubtful or unsure about them, but they really grew to be a part of us. i was about to cry when we parted ways. that sucked. i think for the first time i’ve understood what it means to have a younger sibling/sister. i loved those 3 like family. i know ill see them again some day… even though no love corps for us this year. god will work his magic.

the dynasty

dynasty – i myself have never been too guilty of flashing this sign everywhere.. nor did i really understand the source of this hand symbol.. but i remembered the summer practices which landed me the job of replacing chris cooley in the future. the hopes of another spring bowl has gotten me excited.. im not gonna lie. maybe im excited cause we can finally establish ourselves as the ‘best’ among churches (a highly prestigous title) and quiet the stupid arguements heard in the past…. actually.. i think i kinda forget the reason for turkeybowl.. fellowship. hmmmmmmm. (no the sign does not mean JJ apparently)

this man is sick

fitz – call me bandwagon, but this man  is unreal and has emerged as one of my favorite players in the league. he kinda makes me wanna grow dreads.. even though some people don’t think i would look good in them. i think imgoing to prove everyone wrong. i dont think anyone can look bad in dreads if you hair is black

the beach – i spent a week in obx. and it reminded me how much i dislike the beach. so when i grow up, i think im going to take my family to the beach once and then never again.. cause sand is no fun. there are a lot of jellyfish at obx too when i went for some reason. it grossed me out. and too bad east coast beaches dont look like this, unless your on the eastern cost of central america or puerto rico or some junks like that.

graduation hopping

graduation – i think i went to 2 graduations last summer. but i remember it was fun for some reason… maybe cause i had an excuse to play all day.  or maybe it was vbs was at the same time so it was a double whammy and maybe cause it excited me for my graduation. im gonna cartwheel off the stage after i get my diploma… dont miss it.

all in all… summer was the shiznat. even though it went by mad fast, and i spent july 4th with the most randomest neighborhood kids. summer camp (for the 2 days i went) was awesome. ocean city and six flags even though that wasnt during the summer. anyways. i hope your summers was as awesome as mine… and i hope this coming summer is awesome also.